How to save a life

Been a sad day.

Buried a hamster today. Put it's rotting corpse into a Coco Pops box, took it to the park, laid it in the ground. Eulogy was short. Wish I said more. Hopeless at showing emotional weakness, it's ok to share HOW U FEEL.

Felt like I was in Scrubs. Felt like I was burying Brendan Fraser, or had killed my favourite patient. Need a doctorate and shit.

"Where did I go wrong
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness and
I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life."

Just trying to explain how I'm feeling with contemporary music.

Weird how pets become friends even though you can't understand them. Wish I could speak to animals. Would ask them which is their favourite high school musical (I like the summer one). Think you get a bond over time and understand each other, like friends. Thought they were just for old people who's friends have died. Feel this is selfish since they'll die soon and the pet won't have an owner, and would be made into food.

Would find it hard to eat something that used to be someone's pet.

Think there is too much love in me. Got a lot of affection, feel I can empathise with people who are experiencing loss. Might become a shrink and help people with issues idk.